Don't Be A SH

Sometimes, it's better to keep the bloody gob shut and just bear with any of those negative emotions some friends are giving you. When you know that someone is defensive and have an aggressive personality, isn't it better to just 'endure' it? In the past, I am the kind of person with whom you won't want to eff around with, you know what I mean? I stand my ground and have my own personal opinion about things and if something wasn't right (or I felt it wasn't right) I would rattle my head off about it and the recipient may not stand a blinking chance in Hell of surviving or argue with me in that sense. But things are different now and I've become submissive. I rarely stand up for myself in the face of aggressive people unless I know that person well and know that he/she can take the shit. I mean, it's normal for people to have different feelings and ideas about things but it's another thing to step over that person all the time without considering that person's feelings just because the person doesn't defend herself very much. Today, I took a bold step and stepped up, stood up and spoke for myself and my feelings. I finally took the role of being the aggressor again....and look where it bloody brought me. Even though it may have costed me a friend, I think I did the right thing. This person thinks the world of himself/herself and the world revolves around him/her. He/she thinks that everyone's at his/her mercy and would take advantage of the people around him/her. I didn't say that this person took advantage of me but to certain people, he/she would take full advantage of asking another person to buy this, pay for that, etc. I didn't agree with that. And I don't believe that people should rely on others too much. One person must have an independent streak in them - without others, they can survive. In life, you need friends and family members but it's not to burden them or use them to the fullest. As a person, we must always have enough resources to be secure and not depend on others all the time. Independent. That's what I believe in and will continue to believe in.

We went for lunch in my car. A tiff ensued in the restaurant and I felt that I had to confront it....dunno why it's there and then, though. Look-lah, the moment I voice this out, this person threaten to open the door of the car and want to belah (go off). Fed up, I released the car lock and he/she just opened the door, said something to make himself/herself a victim and walked off. It's so common for some gender to do this because I've done this multiple times myself and I know it's a bloody threat...usually meant to bend balls...but I don't have balls in my pants and since I am pretty familiar with this open-the-door tactic, it didn't work on me. I can be damn hard-ass when I want to. Because this person has been tekan-ing (pressing and stepping on me) all this while, he/she thinks it will work on me??? I sat there contemplating if I should go down and ask him/her to come back to the car as it would be difficult to get a cab at this kind of rush hour. But instead, the strong part of me told me to go on. I shifted the gear to reverse, got the car out of the parking space, put it into drive and drove me and the kids home. I will stand my ground and that's the end of the story. I may be lembik (soft on the inside) but like my cousin keeps telling me, don't be a SOHAI.